I just logged on for the first time in forever bc I suddenly worried about not having seen anything from a friend who I knew had health problems in a hot minute, and everything seems to be okay, but just opening my inbox and seeing the names of all my old friends has me in a mode of like mourning for the friends who are no longer in my life. My old self. How social and how easy it was for me to message people and chat. Everyone I’ve lost to time and because of my lack of self worth keeping me from maintaining friendships. I know tumblr’s mostly died, so I don’t know which of my friends are still here, but like like this or message me or something. I really do miss people
Oh, yeah, i feel like i forgot to tell yall the most important life update: while i still LOVE armand and the vampire chronicles, after like 13 years it no longer fills all my waking thoughts. Now haikyuu and way too many of the characters do
this just made me realize… pretty much all of the monsterfuckers I know have some sort of disability or are LGBT+ (tho most of the LGBT+ ones also have disabilities; the rest might idk). I’m trying to think of one who doesn’t fit either/both categories and I’m coming up blank.
This is a REALLY good article about why monsters mean so much to trans folks, and it just… it says what I’ve never been able to articulate as a trans man who resonates with monsters.
your late twenties is like one of your friends is getting promoted, one of your friends is binge-watching an early 2000′s tv show, one of your friends is moving away, one of your friends is moving home, one just graduated, one just dropped out, one spends all day in bed, at least three of them are getting into crystals and alternative medicine, one of them is changing careers, one of them still “doesn’t know what they want to do with their life” and talks about starting a podcast, one of them is on sabbatical, and everyone’s tummy hurts but they’re being so brave about it
So, i’m in quarantine for like the 3rd time this year lmao. it’s ridiculous to think i’ve spent like a month and a half of this year literally stuck inside. I know it’s my own fault, and i don’t necessarily mind for the sake of everyone’s safety.. and this time it’s nicer bc the first time i quarantined in korea it was in the gov’t facilities bc i was only on a tourist visa and couldn’t do anything else, but now! i have my own apartment to chill in! But anyway, it feels harder this time bc ive gotten my negative covid test and i’m vaccinated, so while i still obsessively wear my mask and make sure to clean off anything i bring from outside, i don’t feel like i’ll pass it on? (still gonna stay inside) but feeling like i wont hurt anyone + being REAL excited to say so many friends + the fact that it’s been only a week now, and i have called ppl, i already feel like i’m spiraling real bad bc i desperately need to go outside and walk and move and interact w ppl again and idk this just a long of me saying i’m currently screaming into the void and desperately need human interaction
Hi! It’s been a hot while! Life update: went to korea for like 4 months at the beginning of the year bc 1) it was a lot safer than the US and 2) i was thinking of moving there but wanted to make sure i actually liked it there first. I ended up making AMAZING friends, and it was truly a wonderful time
I finally graduated and got my undergrad in may! and i got a job in korea!! now i’m going back next week, and i am so nervous, but excited for this life change and finally making real moves on the “need to move out the US and see the world” goal i’ve had since i was like 12 lol
